Amy, one of my four most influential teachers, once told me that one of the most pernicious tenets of liberal cultural studies is the invocation against hate, the premium on tolerance as the ultimate virtue, the belief that one cannot do serious scholarship or be considered an honest scholar if one harbors one suppressed dollop of disdain for any subject(s) within or without one's expertise. Her field was Queer Theory and her specialty theories of passing. She told me, taking pride in not hating who wants to beat the fuck out of you for being you, taking pride in not hating who wants to make your identity a crime, doesn't make you a morally virtuous paragon and a better teacher and scholar but a motherfucking fool and, worse, a motherfucking tool.
She left academia. Did she jump or was she pushed? Yes.
Last of some night light, who cares the when of this, glittered the tree up at the ned of the wash from a car as moved the planet, I'm not in touch with personally Saturn, in branched fingers of eerily, I'd say off-the-shelf language, isn't it necessary still how life lit into the moment to say other than the facts of it, see, whatever the bits are inside that oscillate or pinwheel, I was moved to internal whirring cicadish, even though my epiphanic dog-walkings mean shit to you in the throes of your epiphanic askings of the moon, for what, afterall are we in this, some random sense of, fuck if I know, belonging
Another one of dozens of my five favorite songs ever: