Dear Cowardly Emailer clever enough to send an email without return address (not that I'd have emailed you; I remark only on your cowardice),
Why yes, this blog does suck, thank you. I've always said so. I don't know what I want this crappy blog to be, funny or serious, happy or angry, light or heavy, conciliatory or accusatory, open-minded or parochial, honest or disingenuous, coherent or incoherent, rude or ruder, loud or louder, self-aggrandizing or self-scourging, informative or white noise, etc.... but I do know that I don't want this blog to be either funny or serious, happy or angry, light or heavy, coherent or incoherent, conciliatory or accusatory, open-minded or parochial, honest or
disingenuous, rude or ruder, loud or louder, self-aggrandizing or
self-scourging, informative or white noise, etc...
These are the funniest, most serious, happiest, angriest, lightest, heaviest, most in need of conciliation, most necessarily accusatory, most open-minded, most parochial, most honest, most disingenuous, most coherent, most incoherent, the rudest, loudest, most self-aggrandizing, most self-scourging, most informative, the most static-filled white-noised days of my life. I'm canary, I'm weathervane, I'm Cassandra, I'm Fool. That you took the trouble to tell me this crappy blog sucks is a sign this crappy blog is suc(K)ceeding at some level. My thanks are not either/or either.
Ambulance-fee back on ballot. If anyone blegs a passionate post detailing the reasons to vote against the fee, I'll link. Alternatively, if that person wants to find his passionate comment detailing the reasons to vote against the fee downblog, I'll link to that.
What are books good for? "My best answer is that books produce knowledge by encasing it. Books
take ideas and set them down, transforming them through the limitations
of space into thinking usable by others. In 1959, C.P. Snow threw down
the challenge of "two cultures," the scientific and the humanistic,
pursuing their separate, unconnected lives within developed societies.
In the new-media ecology of the 21st century, we may not have closed
that gap, but the two cultures of the contemporary world are the culture
of data and the culture of narrative. Narrative is rarely collective.
It isn't infinitely expandable. Narrative has a shape and a temporality,
and it ends, just as our lives do. Books tell stories. Scholarly books
tell scholarly stories."
Against the Day. I've found myself thinking about it more than I thought I would when I finished my second read a couple of months ago, mostly about Cyprian Latewood, his entire story but especially his epiphany in Bulgaria. The more I think about it, for all the Vibes, Traverses, Rideouts, Chums, and Highcourts, Cyprian may be the key character.
UPDATE!Heh! Damn, now Jim's pissed at the realities of the world. Those of you guitar players who read this shitty blog, can The Situation's CD release be far away?
To live each day as if it might be the last Is an injunction that Marcus Aurelius Inscribes in his journal to remind himself That he, too, however privileged, is mortal, That whatever bounty is destined to reach him Has reached him already, many times. But if you take his maxim too literally And devote your mornings to tinkering with your will, Your afternoons and evenings to saying farewell To friends and family, you’ll come to regret it. Soon your lawyer won’t fit you into his schedule. Soon your dear ones will hide in a closet When they hear your heavy step on the porch. And then your house will slide into disrepair. If this is my last day, you’ll say to yourself, Why waste time sealing drafts in the window frames Or cleaning gutters or patching the driveway? If you don’t want your heirs to curse the day You first opened Marcus’s journals, Take him simply to mean you should find an hour Each day to pay a debt or forgive one, Or write a letter of thanks or apology. No shame in leaving behind some evidence You were hoping to live beyond the moment. No shame in a ticket to a concert seven months off, Or, better yet, two tickets, as if you were hoping To meet by then someone who’d love to join you, Two seats near the front so you catch each note.
Well then, this will be the next few days' bleg-chum:
One closing remark that I want to make: It is inexcusable for any
Democrat or progressive right now to stand on the sidelines in this
midterm election. There may be complaints about us not having gotten
certain things done, not fast enough, making certain legislative
compromises. But right now, we've got a choice between a Republican
Party that has moved to the right of George Bush and is looking to lock
in the same policies that got us into these disasters in the first
place, versus an administration that, with some admitted warts, has been
the most successful administration in a generation in moving
progressive agendas forward.
Yesterday I got cornered and hectored separately by K and W and S and D who each asked first if I'd read the interview and second if I'm going to shut up and wise up and vote.
Greg Sargent categorized the three "strains" of Democratic/Progressive displeasure with Obama:
The first is the Dem base's lack of enthusiasm. This, obviously,
concerns rank and file voters who, from the point of view of the White
House, are not sufficiently happy with Obama's performance. This is what
Biden was referring to when he urged Dems to "remind our base
constituency to stop whining and get out there and look at the
alternatives."
The second group on the left constitutes high-profile commentators, such
as Rachel Maddow and Glenn Greenwald, who are mounting a detailed,
substantive policy critique of the Obama administration on issues that
are important to them. These folks see their role as advocates for a
particular policy agenda, and they don't hesitate to whack the White
House when it commits what they see as grave policy missteps. For them
to hold their fire because the White House wants them to would be an
unthinkable betrayal of the role they've carved out for themselves. This
is the "professional left" Robert Gibbs sneeringly alluded to -- even
though Obama himself has said he craves such criticism.
The third group constitutes operatives like Adam Green of the
Progressive Change Campaign Committee, Jane Hamsher of FireDogLake, some
labor operatives, and groups like MoveOn. These folks are making a
largely political argument. They are not merely griping because
the White House failed to be as left wing as they would have liked on
the public option or the big banks. They are making the case that
fighting harder for liberal priorities -- even if that battle is
hopeless in some cases -- is better politics for Democrats overall, because it might leave Dems with an energized base heading into the midterms.
I'm two and three! Yay me!
"People need to shake off this lethargy. People need to buck up," Obama
told Rolling Stone in an interview to be published Friday. The president
told Democrats that making change happen is hard and "if people now
want to take their ball and go home, that tells me folks weren't serious
in the first place." Change is hard? Obama seems to be having an easy time expanding and extending the scope of the state panopticon, his power
to kill Americans whenever and wherever and for whatever reason he wants, to escalate robot-war. Obama had wrapped the
lengthy Q-and-A session, according to the magazine, but then returned
unprompted to make one more impassioned point and unleash on the
enthusiasm gap. He portrayed a clear choice between an administration
that despite some warts has helped advance its agenda, and a Republican
Party that would offer disastrous policies for the economy and civil
liberties. *!hEh!* He said "civil liberties."
(I'd also point out there's a fourth group, those of us who want nothing more than rightwing American heads to explode in impotent fury
and Obama's only delivered on the fury.)
K and W and S and D are snapping like schnauzers at bacon I still compulsively snap at when bacon is waved. -.06% less-shitty is a mighty powerful stimulant when the .06% more is Newt Gingrich. If Bob Ehrlich is elected governor of Maryland I think one of my loved ones has enough seniority to survive but another of my loved ones might be pig-budgeted out of a job. I've still never not voted when eligible, every even-number year since 1978, primary and general election. I will vote this November for the BoE apple ticket because loved ones say please. I'm curious to see if it's close enough in last day polls I'll vote against Ehrlich....but....
But is this true? Are K and W and S and D snapping that that could be worse, that that starvation level is the best that's achievable when their team is in power?
With Matt Lauer yesterday, Obama was asked about poverty, and he
basically gave an answer that George W. Bush would have given. He said
that increasing economic growth will help poverty. It will. I agree that
job creation is the most important thing. But when the unemployment
rate was a lot lower, there were still millions of Americans who needed
these benefits.
I’ve been pulling my punches, and my progressive colleagues have been
pulling their punches, because we’re rooting for this administration to
succeed. But honestly, if George W. Bush did what they’re trying to do,
we’d be camping out in front of the White House. Goodwill only goes so
far when tens of thousands of children need food.
Either Obama can't or Obama can and won't, yes? Either Democrats can't or Democrats can and won't. I think it's can and won't, but why should I allow myself to be blackmailed into voting for either?
I know shit about Christianity, though I know more than most christers. The piece asks, straight-faced, "So why would an atheist know more about religion than a Christian?"
Acknowledging that Democrats are complicit shits doesn't mitigate the shittiness of neo-con assholes and the crackers they manipulate: Gaffney argued that Sharia -- that is, a system of laws defined by the
Koran -- is a threat to the Constitution, and most mosque leaders preach
Sharia. It's a common argument among necons and mosque opponents... Gaffney admitted, however, that he is no expert."I don't hold myself out as an expert on Sharia Law," he said. "But I have talked a lot about that as a threat."
Blood Meridian once, twice (with delicious evisceration of James Wood).
Blood Meridian illustrated (h/t the guy above). Planet has been assigned All My Pretty Ones, the first novel McCarthy wrote after Blood Meridian, and Yay! I suppose (as opposed to other options), but (I said this here before), Blood Meridian hit me like a hammer, and nothing McCarthy has written since that I've read (and I stopped reading after the Border Trilogy) can compare.
Which is most important to writing poetry, description or compression?
GILBERT
Neither. I would say presence, feeling,
passion—not passion, but love. I usually say romantic love, but here I
don’t mean being thrilled. I mean the huge experience of loving another
person and being loved by another person. But it’s more than just liking
someone or thinking they make you happy.
INTERVIEWER
In your poems, how important is the interplay between syntax and line breaks?
GILBERT
I don’t think that way. I work by instinct
and intelligence. By being smart, emotional, probing. By being sly,
stubborn. By being lucky. Being serious. By being quietly passionate. By
something almost like magic.
The band all the college kids at Hilltop are talking about stole their entire sound from Hall and Oates. I'm not saying it sucks - it doesn't - it's just fucking weird.
I suspect United's regretful, naive, and blinkered owner Will Chang sees himself in a box: things won't get any better if he fires Kevin Payne and might get worse if he does. He's wrong, and the following implies directly that Kevin Payne, after a sixth consecutive season worse than the previous, has been rewarded with another year of unaccountability:
While United President Kevin Payne has stated that
Olsen is likely to lead United someday, he has also suggested that Olsen
lacks the experience to guide the club through these turbulent times.
To Olsen's credit, the players have responded to his impassioned pleas
to play for the badge and salvage something from this miserable year;
unfortunately, their energy and commitment have failed to compensate for
voids at several positions and terrible mistakes.
Heh, voids at several positions. LIKE EIGHT OF THEM!
Look, I'm not qualified to say whether Benny Olsen is ready to be a head coach, but you know who else isn't qualified to say?
It's a good thing the economy is as if not more fucked in every city United could move to than DC's. And that, fellow motherfuckers, is root and rube of our moral dice game....
Planet and Earthgirl flew to Minnesota this past Friday for an overnight visit to Carleton, so I was in charge of Rudy, our rescue dog, from six Friday morning until six Sunday night. When I got home Friday night he had broke into the trash and what he didn't eat he'd strewn throughout the house. What he did eat gave him the shits, turd after turd sparkling with chewed bits of aluminum foil, including two dumps in the living room waiting for me when I got home from United's game Saturday night. I screamed, he cowered, skulked, hid under the dining room table. I turned on the TV and saw a PSA: a guy gets out of his pickup with his dog, throws a tennis ball into the woods, and when the dog chases it the guy gets in his pickup and drives off. The dog comes back to the road, the ball in its mouth, watches the tail-lights fading.
I may or not write about the topic of the day, highlighted in the first four bullets below, though short-answer is that the scheduled misery hasn't affected me yet beyond a niggling itch of complicity. A shorter answer is that I just did.
UPDATE! Holyfuck, Arcade Fire sucks. They suck so much they're not worth hating (like Jack Fucking White is worth hating), but why the fuck are they always on my radio?
Why was Branko Bošković signed? This isn't snark: was he bought thinking he'd help this team this year or was he bought with an eye to the team that will be rebuilt out of the ruins of this one? I have no faith it's the latter: I think Kasper Payne, in a sad effort to rescue a deeply shitty team, panicked and splashed money and a designated player tag on a player who may be perfectly useful on the left-wing but who isn't a ten no matter how much United wants him to be.
Najar is wonderful. He will be in Europe when United is good again. Maybe the next coach's system takes advantage of Bošković's skills. The Quaranta-meter is clocking upward; he's responded positively to wearing the Captain's band. Everyone else on the field last night will be elsewhere or on the bench or out of the league when United is good again. There's a new category that will be used until his shut-the-fuck-upness is off this team. And how's that Jaime Moreno farewell tour going?
And lost in the shuffle of MLS expansion and its consequent importation of ever more mediocre soccer players is the concurrently consequent importation of ever more mediocre referees. Alex Prus is one of the top three or four MLS referees and is a ridiculous assclown. He doesn't cost teams victories, he costs teams injuries.
I've got two potential invites to meet for pints by blegfriends coming to DC for the Stewart/Colbert production on the mall, and if I'm in town (we may be away for one last Planet college trip), I'd love to meet up for pints. I should know in couple of weeks if I'll be in town; if yes, I'll work out some logistics. Anyone else potentially coming to town who'd like to potentially meet up for drinks and yap, email.
I've not given a second's thought to attending the rally. I've not given a second's thought until now about the rally. I've no idea what the rally is, what it's meant to achieve, if it's real and a stunt, if it's fake and a stunt. What is it? Not that I'll go.
UPDATE!Merrill. Funny, I was talking with a friend about Merrill just this past week, how my friend gets him and I don't (or I do but not much), how I need try again.
After a few whiffs of another world he decided to stay with the stench or the present: dumpster lids everywhere rising like cakes, garbage scows moving in long orderly lines across the harbor... The olfactory - he loves it even when it wafts, wracking all points of the compass. It's always invisible and takes its directions according to the whimsy of wind, and fans, or the waves of a hand. Cave dwellers knew it, and dogs. The bare smell of dirt on cabbage, the snow- on-your-arm smell. Even in the abstract: fear-smell, like spit on a knife blade. And what the worms inhale, and then the smell of dew on barbed wire, the sweet think smell of sex, slick, our lungs giddy and pink with it... It's not the world which is good or bad and so we run our noses over everything. Even the dumb have this sense.
I'm tribal, I'm shallow, I'm small. I think human capacity to micro-network tribal grievances saved humans from destruction merely by exacerbating human incapability to organize and execute self-extinction. Some guy would shoot an arrow at a fat fleeing me because I'd shoot an arrow at some fuck in a tree-stand shooting arrows at sickly-ass Maryland deer. I've never found peace because I've never looked for it.
I'm black licorice to some; many are black licorice to me. This is not complaint: I like being black licorice almost as much as I like being liked, as if I had a say either way. This is not a complaint: those who hate each other instinctively, competitively, vigorously, teach us more about ourselves than all
the love of all our friends.
Is Greenwald beyond criticism? I think his asinine defense of Kos' book undermined some of his credibility, and he earned all the criticism he took for that, but I think he's a far more honest broker than Digbys and Shakes, etc.... which doesn't mean he's beyond criticism, just explains why he might be criticized less.
UPDATE!Influential left-wingers? I confess, I love reading Zizek, think he's an excellent fraud, possibly the best fraud now working. And I mean that as a high compliment.
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You could put an X here. You could draw a picture of a horse. You could write a tract, manifesto - but keep it short. You could wail, whine, rail or polysyllable celebrate. You could fill this space with one syllable: praise. The only requirement, the anti-poet said, is to improve upon the blank page, which, if you are not made blind by ego, is a hard task. You could write some numbers here. You could write your name, and dates. You could leave a thumbprint, or paint your lips and kiss the page. A hard task - the blank so creamy, a cold and perfect snowfield upon which a human, its only human, wants to leave his inky black and awkward marks.
Another one of dozens of my five favorite songs ever:
Nick Cave is 53 today, which is serendipitously related to this post because all it takes is reading someone bleggalgaze to create a bleggalgazing cascade in my head that increases in intensity until I need release it and that Nick Cave song is this bleg's official Bleggalgazing Anthem.
I'm always wondering if I've stopped wondering about thinking about blegstopping because I clearly can't blegstop, but I can't stop wondering whether I could stop wondering if I'm thinking about wondering about thinking about blegstopping. Oddest days of my life; if everything's a metaphor for everything else... There's always this: Thanks for the Kind.
Speaking of bleggalgazing, there is an odd vibe in Blegsylvania. September, January, June are always weird months as people's work/school/life cycles change and with it their viewing/posting routines, but I sense a weary withdrawal setting in, a withdrawing weariness.
Speaking of bleggalg(r)azing, some new links over in New New Toys, and suggestions for new places are solicited.
The artisans of this room, who designed the lamp base (a huge red slug with a hole where its heart should be) or chose this print of a butterscotch sunset, must have been abused in art class as children, forced to fingerpaint with a nose, or a tongue. To put this color green--exhausted grave grass--to cinder blocks takes an understanding of loneliness and/or institutions that terrifies. It would seem not smart to create a color scheme in a motel room that's likely to cause impotence in men and open sores in women, but that's what this puce bedspread with its warty, ratty tufts could do. It complements the towels, torn and holding awful secrets like the sail on a life raft loaded with blackened, half-eaten corpses . . . I think I owned this desk once, I think this chair is where I sat with the Help Wanted ads spread and wobbling before me as I looked for jobs to lead me upward: to rooms like this, in America, where I dreamed I lived . . . Do I deprive tonight the beautician and her lover, a shower-head salesman, of this room? He is so seldom in town. I felt by their glance in the hallway that my room, no. 17, means something (don't ask me to explain this) special to them. Maybe they fell fiercely into each other here for the first time, maybe there was a passion preternatural. I'm glad this room, so ugly, has known some love at $19.00 double occupancy-- though not tonight, for a dollar fifty less.